Five Months worth only goes about 50 lbs

I'm ready. Ready to hit the road or the air is more appropriate. My body is ready too minus the fact that i'm paler than pale. It's nearly nine pm and already i'm sleepy. I'm going to blame it on the fact that my stupid body has been waking up a hour earlier with each progressing day. Today is was 7 am and i''m guessing tomorrow will with 6. I guess i should look at it as a good thing seeing as a week from now i will be in my new home for 5 months in Singapore. Singapore is about 14 hours ahead of time compared to iowa. I guess it might benefit me to wake up a little earlier in that case. The real problem ahead is narrowing down the amount of clothing that i wish to take while still bringing some other needed supplies. All this packing and planning is really starting to wear me out. Blame it on Singapore that it's only 9 pm and i'm going to bed.

FINALLY Back from a short or long spell of winter depression

That's right.. it's called winter depression well at least something like that. maybe perhaps it is just called chemical engineering school depression. All the same i am nearing recovery and by this time next week i can officially take that much needed break from all things school. Then i will be beginning a new chapter so to speak.... it's name is SINGAPORE. I'm sure there will be much to be said about all things singapore but i will save all these moments till the proper time so as to not get ahead of myself. With that it seems only appropriate to reminisce about the last couple months or however long it has been since i have written last.

The semester has flown by yet some really exciting things happened. for one the smells sounds and joys of what can only come from iowa state football season.

I finally reached that age. the age of true adulthood. turning 21 is a milestone. Although i would still prefer a cup of coffee to a beer or a glass of wine, it still feels good to be 21. 

I love my connection group and am very sad that i will be leaving them for a short while. We make tie dye look classy. we are a pretty large group but everyone of the girls has a beautiful heart and im so proud of each of them and glad that i have been given the chance to lead them and see them grow in to beautiful woman rooted in God's word. 

Finally there is my lovely roommates. yep pretty much love them all. I'm going to miss them while in gone but praise God for skype and video messages via facebook. the laughs and the craziness will be missed 

So although on average the last semester hasn't been too eventful im sure of one thing, God continues to work in me and the people around me. He loves all of us and as it says in 1 John he calls us his children. That is what we are! 

Farewell Summer

Let's face it Summer has come and Now Gone. It's been about a week now since i've truly felt a warm sun on my shoulders and neck. I see my tan slowly fading. Summer has thought me a lot of marvelous things at the same time. 

1. there is nothing like an iced coffee, book, and a bed of green grass.
2. once you pass the initial burning stage it is all tan from then on.
3. when all else fails, camp indoors.

4. who ever said that public pools are just you high school students and younger is seriously misinformed.

5. rock hunting is a season sport and worth the dirty fingernails.

Ohh summer. how you will be missed....

Tickle me

Did you know that it is impossible to tickle yourself? Try it? it simply doesn't work. The reason because you are just too intelligent to trick your own brain. you see when you tickle yourself, your cerebellum warns the rest of your brain that you are about to tickle yourself. Thus your brain ignores the resulting sensation entirely. Interesting right? well random but that all for now. Go out and tickle someone besides yourself. 

climbing out of the valley

Today is one of those days. one of those days where everything just seems to fly by while i myself seem to be a haze or a motionless and thoughtless. It seems like everything is progressing while i just sit and watch.

I've lost the way to access joy or at least i've lost the motivation to access joy. It appears that maybe i need to break from life thus i decided to write this blog in hopes of forcing myself to process so as to find that which has been lost. There are many reasons why i feel this numbness. I think it could be the fact that im going off a long weekend full of many glorious things and people and now have to face school yet again. Or maybe its the fact that im drained after doing lots of organic chemistry. I think the true reason is that im letting go. I think this is what is feels like at the very bottom of a deep valley. My valley is from deciding to leave all my expectations at the foot of the cross yet again in my life. But heres the thing about a valley...a valley is really only beautiful from above or at least you can't appreciate it nearly as much unless you see if from afar. So as i leave what expectations i have i need to climb out of with the help of God and the Holy Spirit relying on what promises are true and only holding tightly to those. So here marks yet another day where the uphill battle commences.  

if I were SUPER HUMAN...

Have you ever wanted a super power? 

Like the ability to morph into your favorite animal or read peoples minds 

How about the ability to have super human strength to lift a car or have super human speed 

well if i could have super human powers they would be... 

I want to be able to walk through walls, speak any language, have superhuman senses, and of course read the minds of those around me and I know just the person that I would start with....

Vade Mecum

I'd like to introduce you to something very special or.... 

at least i hope will one day be very special 

It is my Vade Mecum 

I know it sounds like a cult of something really weird. 

Actually a vade mecum is a book that one carries all the time. almost like a manual 

my vade is for someone very special... my future husband. 

I haven't been doing the best job at updating it so i figured i would write about it and 

then perhaps i would get the drive to write more in it. 

So basically you can start your own today if you like. 

here's a sneak peak...