Living an Unfair Life

As first glance, my life seems unfair. I live each day hoping for something and each day it seems to always fall short. why ? what causes this? is it my decisions or is it God? Is God ultimately just choosing to not make me happy? That seems silly why would a God so loving choose to not bless me? One of the most asked questions to theologians is why does God cause pain to his children? It seems unfair. we expect a life filled with little suffering upon choosing to follow Him, but this never is the case. But I've often felt closest to God in the darkest deepest trials of my life. Like when a friend died or when my relationships with friends and family where just falling apart. I guess it is because I have realized in those moments that the only person that i can count on or hope in is God. it seems so uncomplicated and i think that is because it is. God made me an emotional being just like everyone else and that is why when hard times come, there is always emotion. Anger. Sorrow. Fear. Joy. all are present in my life. It is what i do with these emotions. I can't just let them lead me from one part of my day to the next. I must harness them and rely on God. Although emotions are God given, they are so dangerous to me in my life. emotions often make us feel insecure and insignificant or even feel us up with ungodly things such as pride or bitterness. We must take a stand against our emotions and instead rely on God's truth and promises. God has promised me so much already like :

1. he will meet my needs Philippians 4:19

2. he works al things together for good Romans 8:28

3. he will comfort me in times of suffering Matthew 11:28

4. he will guide me on where i should go Psalm 32:8

5. My joy is made complete through him John 15:11

6. I can find peace in him John 14:27

7. He will teach me his ways Isaiah 2:3

8. he will never leave me nor forsake me Hebrews 13:5

The powers that God are endless. God is just and suffering will always be there. It is God's mechanism to make us strong like it says in Roman 5:3-5 " Not only so but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the holy spirit whom he has given us."

Break me Father so that i may better know who you are and rely more completely on you...