All a girl wants is to be loved.
To be looked at with undying affection.
To be surrounded with the security of someone else by her side.
To be called beautiful.

Cooking Adventures

So since i finally have a place to call my own, one that has my very own stove. I have become a cooking machine. I used to think that i hated to cook turns out it can be quite enjoyable, especially in the close company of friends.

Homemade chicken pot pie with miss. valerie allen was quite lovely. just look at the golden brown crust on that beauty. What goes best with chicken pot pie well i delicious dessert of course. how about these cream cheese filled chocolate cupcakes. Valerie and i should open a bakery with my frosting skills and her sprinkling and photographing skills i'm pretty sure we would be a hit.

other cooking adventures have included making homemade salsa and also yellow chicken curry and rice.

Summer

Ahh Summer. what is sometimes the best time of year.

Ahh summer school. what is sometimes associated with the most painful experience in life short of child birth, having an incurable disease, or being run over by a car.

Surprisingly, summer school hasn't been too unbearable. Although, each day starts bright in early at 7:30 which is unheard of in summer, it does have it upsides. For one it gives you a chance to drink lots of coffee without being unable to sleep when bedtime rolls around. It also caters very nicely to getting a lot accomplished in a single day. I feel more motivated to work out, actually study, or even just do fun things like cook. I have also never had a such a refreshing class as Religion in America. Although the teacher is less than desirable and frankly i think she would scare little children on the street, she does often make me laugh. True half the time, i'm somewhat frustrated due to the the way she portrays Christianity, i still have to admit the class has not been a waste of time. Such an easy class also provides ample time to do fun activities. now what to do today.... paint... bake... read... or even nap.

Breath of Air

Umm God is good. This week i just have been reminded so much of the Love that He shows towards me. The feelings of hopelessness have subsided and a much needed break from all things engineering occurred this weekend. I know that doubting your major is not an uncommon occurrence yet i still urks me. But after talking it out it has become clear to me that chemical engineering can bring me to the end that i desire. i can do what I've always seen myself doing helping people and serving them and showing them God's love. so ya i want to be an internal medicine doctor or develop pharmaceutical drugs, and i can. even if i don't God will provide me with something even more lovely. And on the other realm God has just reminded me of the fact that he see's me more righteous than i even see myself and that he will ALWAYS have my best interests at heart. I feel so satisfied in Him. I've finally had an opportunity to breathe so that i could re-center. God's love is so immense and beautiful.

A New Passion- the Crossword puzzle

I have always admired my grandmother for her crossword puzzle solving skills and this semester in particular i have taken it upon myself to become a master of the art of solving them. Lucky for me that i have a crossword at my ready each day due to the iowa state daily newspaper. i find that except for the opinion articles it is often the only interesting part of the paper. i'm quite certain that a substantial amount of students only pick it up for the crossword or the sudoku. Anyways, since doing the crosswords i have learned various things that i thought i would share with you.

#1 an aster is a fall flower

#2 Hop along cassidy is a cowboy

#3 Shahs are persian rulers

#4 Eos is the dawn goddess

#5 Another word for hankerings is yens

#6 a galoot is a clumsy or oafish person

#7 A dashiki is a loose african garment

I find that sometimes the crossword is just the challenge i need and also that its more entertaining than many of the monotone professors. So during your next class, put down our phone and instead pull out the crossword puzzle, you will learn a lot and also find a great deal of entertainment. Best wishes!

A deeper side of me

I was recently just thinking about who i am , how i portray myself , how i want to be viewed.

So i half crazy and half the most serious person you will ever know. seems illogical but anyone who truly knows me would agree. so i have a light switch one that i can turn on and off.

Here's how a day goes in my life ( a typical monday) :

wake up, shower(or not), get dressed, go out the door to class.

Show up at my 9 am class and listen to thermod

ynamics and math garbage and stare at the people who are falling asleep and also the kid that looks exactly like my professor( see right ) and has the same mannerisms as my professor. I think it may be his son or nephew, it's just that creepy. by this time i've most likely had coffee and my hands are now shaking and will until I eat lunch.

I then head to the molecular biology building and the hear about ATP, membranes, photosynthesis, enzymes and things like glycolysis and oxidative phosphorylation(see photo) yep that's right sounds

exciting unfortunately it's really not. I often look around at the 100 freshman or more that are in the class with me and wonder. why am i here? But then i remember that i like biology to some extent and that it should be easy A if i try.

Next i enter durham and then go to Chemical engineering 356. The class of true champions. well my teac

her is something to be "desired". his n's look like s's and it once took me a whole minute to decipher the word "inertial". I usually spend the majority of the time listening to him while still managing to work on the daily crossword puzzle. Safe to say that the crossword is

more interesting and i has probably taught me more useful knowledge then the class itself. All the same i still enjoy the class because i mean who doesn't love the alluring of learning about pipe flow and fluid mechanics. The text book is from a quarter century ago and has a poop brown cover. it's pretty cool.

SO LUNCH udcc style most days. we eat. we laugh. we commune together.

Differential equations to follow lunch is sometimes the highlight of the day. i think my

teacher is a spy. She has all that's required of a

spy. she is from china. she likes math. she is sometimes really feisty. i mean seriously look at this picture --->

All the same, i enjoy her. she says the most ridiculous things, things that only someone who is asian would say. Also there is this girl in my class that i routinely get a kick out of. whenever we pass the attendance sheet to the front of the class and it get's to her all she needs to do is tap the person in front of her and pass it. instead of just passing it up, she gets super self conscious and makes this funny face and places it on the desk next to her and then carries it up to jun pan (my professor) after class. i don't know why this is so amusing but it is.

The final class of the day is physics but i really don't care about talking about it. it's depressing to say the least and not the highlight of my week.

AHH the feeling of going home. what a joyous feeling to head back to my dorm. this is where the true fun occurs like making a mario cart video in my hallway, looking at my fish

(mike f livingston), writing in my vade and drinking tea, embracing my natural born unicorn character. Anything and Everything.

SO that is the life of me in a single monday. so normal yet so amazing. I have that switch that every person should have. i know how to have fun but im still a hard worker and very good at managing my time. you should be glad to know me. i can carry an intelligent conversation yet im a blast to be around, just ask my roommate steffi.

Idols and my holy ambition

I'm so sick of being distracted. Being distracted by this world and the things it tells me that i must desire and work towards. Yes a great deal of these distractions are satisfying for the time being but looking back ever once and a while i see that they have not only been pointless but they have actually made me hate a great deal of who i am. I want one thing and that is to discover my holy ambition and by this i mean the path of which God has for me and the confidence in this path. I have no idea if the path that currently comes to mind is even half right but i do know that my ears are listening and my eyes are open and most importantly my mind is clear and ready for God to show me what my ambition should be. Im so tired of falling away. the Truth of the matter is that ive been distracted by school, my relationships, and my own goals. Sometimes there is too much sacrifice and then other times I'm selfish in these areas of my life. Today is the day to change this. The direction that i go is to let God have complete control of my life and to do everything for his glory. Its time to aspire to be a christian hedonist that i believe will bring me the truest kind of joy possible. I have to commit to this so that i can become the woman of God i must be. I cast all of my idols away knowing that it is the only way to succeed and to love God the way i want. Only when i do this can i find my holy ambition...